The Procrit has made me sooooo sleepy this weekend. And my eyes have been burning like mad, but I’m unsure as to whether or not that’s just not allergies getting to me.
After taking the shot on Friday, along with my usual Interferon, I felt….just weird. My hands and feet tingled a bit and I found myself very aware of my heart beating. I’m not going to deny that I am more than a bit afraid of the cardiovascular uncertainty in my life right now. Friday night found me lying in bed trying to get myself off to sleep, doing a lot of reiki on my heart. I don’t *think* that there is anything going on, but it’s a bit of a Pandora’s box to have it even mentioned as a mere possibility. I am doing my very best to not allow the fear to grip me. I know going down that path will make me more ill, and ultimately is a futile one. However; I do feel the need to acknowledge them.
So. Hello Fear(s). I see you, and I banish you to the land of hope, where you can hang out with some healthier emotions. 
Tonight, I am going to do a full body reiki treatment on myself with hopes that I can balance out some of the obvious issues that have arisen. It was so weird last night, I was doing a bit of reiki, and behind my closed eyes all I could envision were these big old fluffy red blood cells. It was interesting, and I just opened myself up to the reiki and its beautiful healing powers.
M and my boy are outside enjoying this gorgeous weather. I just watched as M taught herself to pump her legs to make the swing going higher and higher. She had the biggest old grin on her face. She just came running into the house to inform me of her new accomplishment. Goddess be, how I love that child. She amazes me more each day.
Off to read some bedtime stories. I will do my best to try to stay awake past 8 so that my boy and I actually get some quality time together.
